Writing From This Heart

Writing from This Heart:

My heart is always on my sleeve. May the words from my heart touch your soul and shine a light to help you out of your own darkness, just as experiencing and feeling them have done for me.

“Bradleys Head Lighthouse” by admilling is marked with Public Domain Mark 1.0. (used under creative commons licensing)

A Reintroduction

Hi. If you’re here, there’s a chance you and I may have already met. My name is Nick. Also known as Schnik. I’ve had a few domains from time to time but recently found a reason to close down my previous domain (schnikism.com) which will return with a little stronger focus on my perspectives of…

August 18, 2022
Chased

All I can do us blame you. For all the life I’ve been through. You never asked me to believe. I never intended to leave nor deceive. The fault is all mine this I know. Why? Because you were a coward. Why? This was never about me. This was about your domination. Your hands around…

October 18, 2023
Anticipation

I am sorry. I never was your expectation. A regret that exists, a single moment, in our time together, you did not know, how much I cared. What I was about? What I valued? Who was appreciated? What it felt like to be loved. I want you in my life. I am sorry, If ever…

October 18, 2023
45 Lines for 45 Years

Born on this day in 1978. Into this world, I came premature so I’m rarely late. A midday birth. In the sun, and spotlight, is where I thrive. On the cusp of both Cancer and Leo. Sometimes a bit Moody. Sometimes a bit boastful. Always fueled by pride. And at the center a forever caring…

October 18, 2023
Soliloquy

No matter how, much you felt, you were unloved, This was evident, from the start. I lost you, When my eyes closed. I lost you, when you left my side. I lost you, No matter how much I held on, And I tried. Who could take it all back? For a moment, in all the…

October 18, 2023
Permission to walk away.

No, I do not regret you.Nor will I destroy those memories.Not for a single moment. The time we shared can never be replaced. The future we lost not seen on our face.There’s some nights I wonder. How are you doing now? Then I let it go with no sorrow, Just like life, I let our paths…

October 1, 2023
In Peace/ Pieces

It’s true, I will never be whole again. It is also true that I am still broken. It has been so many years. Now replaced with greatest fears. The way you came into my life, The way you claimed I was the one for you, You tore me up, from the inside out, you created…

July 12, 2023
Climb Higher

Let this be your spark. Let it be the start. Let this flame,fan the fire in your heart. Take this time to grow. From the ashes, let it go. Take nor give any blame. And only the best of you will you show. This place is your home With both feet, explore and rome. Release…

July 7, 2023
Universal Truth

Dear Universe; It is my hope, that today and every day, you continue to show us compassion, hope, love, and happiness. In the darkness, reach out your hand with light. In the rain, dance to your favorite groove, and heartbreak, remember your heart is still at the center of your self. And just breathe.

July 5, 2023
Do You Believe?

There was a time when you,the smallest mention of you:Made my heart beat,Made my life move forward. Then, you forgot me.Then, you tore me apart.Then, you stood away from me.When I needed you,the absolute most.You watched, encouraged,drove me to:The many ends of my life. Whether standing tall,Or begging on my knees, through rivers of tears,through…

June 30, 2023
Mother

First things first, I am the asshole son, Who was too caught up in his own life, To stop, for a single moment, to call on Mother’s Day. And then I felt bad, ashamed at another, opportunity missed to say thank you. So, I took a moment and wrote this: From the deepest depths of…

June 11, 2023