I do not understand.

Why this path, we had to take?

Why my world, had to blow up?

Why every day, my tears still fall?

The love that shines, throughout my soul.

Why I still keep looking, out the window?

Thinking I have seen your face.

Praying that you were mine.

I’ve looked to the heavens.

I’ve looked down below.

My heart, it is breaking.

You will probably never know.

You will probably never care.

I have always loved you.

The very first moment, we smiled at each other.

I was forever yours.

I was hoping you would be forever mine.

I have always needed you.

It is the connection of our two hearts, that pulled me through. 

When you left it was a kick in the gut.

Over and over, and over again.

I still don’t know why.

I still I cannot let you go.

I stare into the skies.

Hoping I once again shall be blessed.

Blessed with the presence of you.

We two burned hotter and hotter.

I am the only one showing the scars.

I don’t know how to find you anymore.

I wish I could see you; I wish I could hold you.

I don’t even know where I fit in anymore.

So trapped in my fears.

Now realized as truth.

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I am paralyzed by your attacks.

I just kept running.

From place to place.

Just trying to find a safer space.

Just a moment of peace.

Just to see your smiling face.

Just to find a greater moment.

Just to find the place to belong. 

That I once found in you.

These words shall be scattered.

Floating as freely as my tears.

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I know I am supposed to let you go.

You are probably gone for good.

I know that you were probably never mine.

But I would give anything,

To have your arms around me one more time.

I am sure I am too late.

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I’m sorry, I was not smarter.

I’m sorry, the destruction is seemingly mine.

I’m sorry, for sitting here alone.

I wish I could take away all that is wrong with the world.

I wish I had all the power.

I wish I could have stopped this pain.

I’m sorry, I will never be whole again.

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If I become larger, when I gain the power.

These broken pieces of my heart shall refract the brightest of lights.

That which emanates from deep within me.

I’m sorry, I am still here.

We will make this work.

This universe will not let me go.

There is so much I need you to know.

I’m sorry, I failed this test.

We shall face the next one with distinction.

I’m sorry, you had to go.

I’m still right here waiting for you

I’m sorry, we’re all alone.

I’m sorry, I have nowhere that feels like home.