Yes. I gave you many chances. Yes, I took many challenges.

The only reason, I’ve ever been able to press on is that always hoped, I always believed, I always held out that it would all be ok. That life would FINALLY hear my whimpers in the night. That those I loved and that those who loved me would see, would be, would feel, would understand, would finally give a damn, that every single day – my mind is shredding itself in half.
I cannot go on like this. I cannot live like this. I cannot move forward from this if the world I have to life in, this new world that has chewed me up and spit me out, is one where the only choice I have, the only thing I can do, is let you all go. To let you all, go, it’s time for me to go. Today, I will be publishing the rest of the week’s posts – so you can see the whole picture.

May you all be strong. May you all have the best possible life. I give you all the shine of a thousand spotlights, I give you every single star in this dreamer’s shining sky. May all your towers of gold be much too little, whenever you need me, I am always at your side. I never left. I have always needed you more than you needed me.

Please do not feel sad, do not feel guilt, do not feel remorse. Please accept my reverence for you all, That I believe that there are so many greater days ahead for you all. Please, please, please do not waste this moment. Reach out to your loved ones, the friends you got into a fight with over politics. The person you no longer speak to because they hurt your feelings, they disregarded you, or your importance.

Make this world a better place for us all. Stop hiding from humanity for crying out loud. For today. All is forgiven, Please let me carry that guilt for you, that burden. Let me hold your hand as you walk through this of evil. Feel no pain.

With all the love in my soul. I forgive you.

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Chances taken, because i Always had hope there would be a love Returned and rekindled instead Lost to the ages and edges of Oblivion where repeated bleak moments Seemed to befall our love.

Joined together in Ascent to a common Vector in an Intergalactic Expression of Romantic bliss.

Glacial ice between Adoring men Replaced by Caring and affection Infused with the strength of mutual Acceptance.

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Chances always taken in the belief of Another that the love i felt would be Returned by the one i dared to plave so much Love and trust within instead lost to Oblivion i was oblivious to the games and Sent into a spiral and torturous headwind at my expense.

Joined together in a common Ascent was a fallacy instead another Vector would prove to favor an alternate victor. Insolence the demonic melody was lost to the Ether the vapor of another log on a symbolic Romantic bonfire.

Glacial ice between two loves solidified Against the tidal flows Replacing a fiery love with a Chilling wind that encased this most Intrepid explorer of love left Anemic against the better nature of all our angels and demons.

Demons Unsung Aligned Revering Tragic Endings.