When did you know
you were the one?
For me, it was from that very first moment.
When I first looked in your eyes,
I had this sudden and deep feeling of love.
That deep inside me I knew I would never be the same.
This love could have stood the test of time.
I knew from that very moment that you were for me, and I was for you.
That you were the one.
That you were always the one.
When did you know that you were the one?
When did you know your absence, your attacks, forced me to take my life?
When did you know that I have begged you to be the one.
The one that I could hold onto for the rest of our lives.
To be the one that helps me find this stable ground.
When did you know you were the one?
Was it when we were dancing in the kitchen?
Or was it when we were sitting in the sunshine singing together?
Was it each and every time you had to hold me in your arms as I lay there crying on the floor.
Or was it on those good nights just after we made up after our fights?
When did you know that you were the one?
When did you feel that you are the one.
When we were matched, that night, as we sat on my bed for the first time, for me, it was the very first time my eyes met yours, my lips met yours, that is when I knew.
In that very moment.
And now, as I sit here on my bed, unable to look you in the eyes…
All I have left is the hope in my soul, and this aching beat in my heart, it was love, it is love.
And my heart will never forget it.
And my heart will never forget you.
And my heart will never not ache for you.
The memories still haunt me, the anniversaries of each milestone, of each moment, of each tragedy and each triumph.
Why do I keep waiting for you?
Why did you have to keep your distance?
Why did you have to destroy me?
Why did I have to cease being me.
I am afraid you won’t see it in time, but I pray you do.
This fire burns deep within my soul.
One final chance before I lose all control.
One more hope as the bell tolls.
The world’s fair brought this spire to our great town.
I wish I could meet you, under the great big needle, to dance there together, in the cold, in the rain, let our heat and out love light the way.
But it’s not meant to be.
Something I’ve believed in for so long; it’s not meant to be.
Something I needed in my life to complete me; it’s not meant to be.
This love wasn’t hopeless, it wasn’t homeless, it was just rudderless.
Neither one of us knew how to steer the correct course, and the rapids became too much.
Without you, I do not know how to survive.
I wanted to sing it out loud.
I wanted to know I was alive and from that very first moment.
The very first moment I saw you.
I knew that you were supposed to be mine.
I believed in faith, in the divine.
I just wish I could believe in those values now.
I just wish I could go back and believe in you.
I just wish I could have made you see, made you feel, that you were the one.
I wish I knew how to fix this.
I wish I knew how to fix myself.
I wish I knew the right words to say.
I wish I knew the right words to write.
I wish I could show you the truth in my heart.
I wish my heart knew the way.
I wish my heart wasn’t so alone.
Our very lives should have been as one,
And without you I don’t know how to survive.
This is my greatest gift to give the world, of my life, that I can find the ways and the words to write.
It is in this way, our love will be memorialized, in this way our love will be here forever.
That I wanted for our love to be forever.
I would be forever yours.
I would gladly give you the rest of my life.
I would gladly give you my hand and hold onto yours.
If only you could have allowed nature to take its course, you could have been mine for life.
This was never for the audience to decide.
This could have only been decided by us.
This could only have been our moment in the sun.
Instead, through our fears, we chose to run.
I can only hope you’re proud of yourself.
I can only hope you’re proud of your actions.
I can only hope you’re proud of your lies.
I can only hope you’re proud of your games.
For all your games, actions, and lie, have left blood-stained streaks on my life that are indelible.
So, when did you know? When did you know you were the one?
I don’t know how I can express it more clearly.
That you were the one for me. And me for you.
And if we never speak again, it will be my greatest regret.
My love for you is infinite, and like a ring, will never break.
This feeling in my stomach is deep within its pit.
Because when you walked away from me I still I knew you were the one.
When I moved away from you, I still knew you were the one.
You will always have been the one for me.
Writing From This Heart 