You needed me to be calm.
I am calm.
You needed me to love.
I am loved.
You needed me to believe.
I always believed.
You needed me to change.
I am forever changed.
You needed me to forgive.
I forgave with all the power in my heart.
You needed me to go through this alone.
I have never felt more alone.
You needed me to magically figure this out.
I have possessed all the wisdom, knowledge, and magic I could hope for.

For all that has been destroyed and all that has been created.
I am sorry.
I am sorry, I have failed you.
I am sorry, I have failed myself.
Regrettably, I am sorry I have failed.

While I’m holding my psyche together by both hands,
While I am trapped between the forces of apathy and panic,
While everyone gets their laughs at my expense.

May you enjoy the favor of whatever deity you choose.
May their presence be on your side tonight.
I will seek the power of truth and a little bit of luck.

Here I stand, here I remain.
Here I grow, here I heal.
Here I rise, here I shine.
Here I love. Here I believe.
Here I seek to find my pride.
Here I choose to bide my time.
Here is where our worlds collide.