There was a time when you,
the smallest mention of you:
Made my heart beat,
Made my life move forward.

Then, you forgot me.
Then, you tore me apart.
Then, you stood away from me.
When I needed you,
the absolute most.
You watched, encouraged,
drove me to:
The many ends of my life.

Whether standing tall,
Or begging on my knees,

through rivers of tears,
through four devastating years,
this is where I have arrived.

On this night,
In this place,
with all my smarts,
and all the truth.
I appreciate that you were afraid on my behalf.
I was always there for you.

You broke me,
You broke my heart,
You broke all that made me who I am.
You broke every part of who we were.
I don’t know who you are.
I have completely lost who I am.

There was nothing I wanted more,
than you and I,
standing together with nothing but love in our hearts. 

No, I couldn’t chase another broken riddle.
And thusly another broken moment.
Not another broken heart.
I just couldn’t start it again. 

Not with this target on my chest.

Not with these strangers in my face.
You’ve driven me from my sanity.
You’ve driven me from my safe space.

You shorted out the matrix.
I do not understand this new interface. 
We all know I could never keep the pace.
No more energy for the hunt or the chase.
The war from religion without God’s grace.
Miles from anywhere – in outer space.
You are one of a kind – not to be replaced.

I am more common.
Hurt. Alone. Drained.
The next thing to swallow,
will send me over the hill.

Good night my love,
Good night my prince,
Good night my heart,
Good night my friend.

It is my every hope that you grow from love and never have to feel the way

I do.