I am sorry.

I never was your expectation.

A regret that exists,

a single moment,

in our time together,

you did not know,

how much I cared.

What I was about?

What I valued?

Who was appreciated?

What it felt like to be loved.

I want you in my life.

I am sorry,

If ever I agreed,

to a threesome that included,

The father, the son,

And memories of a long lost ghost.

I did it all for you.

I regret that you,

felt.

I wasn’t dedicated,

to our happiness,

to our future,

at all times.

I am sorry,

I fell into the pages,

Instead of into our lives.

I regret that you,

felt you had to deceive,

rather than talk,

openly and honestly.

I am sorry,

you needed more,

than I had to give.

I am sorry that I am,

as unimportant,

as unnecessary,

as I have become.

I regret being broken inside.

I regret giving you the very last of myself.

I regret that I tried so hard to get you to love me.

Knowing you were so incapable of that love.

I regret allowing myself,

to feel that I wasn’t,

enough to please you.

That you could never,

understand my feelings,

my sentiments and my actions,

were focused on making you happy,

I regret I failed to do so.

I am sorry,

my belief in how amazing a person you are invokes anger and rage within in you.

I regret that my feelings were never important enough to you that you understood when you hurt my feelings and when you should have apologized.

“I am sorry.”

Those are the words you should be looking for and yet you find them impossible to say.